Someone said to me recently that I have been quite introspective recently online and I guess I have. I am certainly using my blogging as a way of not only getting better at writing but collecting my thoughts on life, existence and the world we live in. As my new tattoo says, "The world be live in and life in general". I am 42 now (I know, I know, so hard to believe) and I guess that time of life fits perfectly with a point of reflection on who one is and what you have done up to this point. The inevitable analysis of yourself and others and what they have done and achieved. Those with fame, those with money, those with families and those I guess, who never made it this far. Ultimately I think this is all healthy as long as one does not spiral down the wormhole of regret, which I hasten to add I have avoided thus far. We should not judge ourselves harshly against others, but it is good to be aware.
However, I am sure there is a fine balance between becoming too introspective in what is ultimately a very public forum. Where once we scribbled in private diaries that no one ever saw, unless we found fame and after death someone saw fit to share our thoughts with the world. Now we write in blogs, potentially visible to 100's of millions of people. Although I certainly am not vain enough to think that even one percent of that number would ever even be interested in what I had to say.
Hopefully I am treading this line ok and that is useful to me and of interest to at least some. I will admit my vanity means I do hope at least a few people read my posts, but they are also just damn useful to me even if not one pair of eyes ever consumes the thoughts that I jot down here from time to time.