So I am doing Blog June as a way of getting myself writing again. It's been a while with other things really dominating my life of late. Relationship changes, moves of city, new job etc etc etc. I do like to write, so find it frustrating when I loose my mojo and somewhat demotivating when I post something and realise no one is really reading anyway. So this month, I am writing for me.
I am having to reevaluate the things that have dominated my thinking over the past few years about what is important. Major change does that I guess and we are all visited by it at certain times in our lives. If we never do, I suspect life can be a bit of a sidewalk to the grave. Also, we never improve if we don't examine who we are. Even though that can be painful at times, I would rather do it than not, despite the consequences or outcomes.
In some ways I am feeling more grounded now than I have ever have. Why is that? Is it age? Is it the fact that I have moved myself, alone, to another city and am getting more me time? Whatever it is, I am enjoying this time even though it is at once frightening and sometimes lonely. Lonely can be good though. Lonely means I have more time to play my uke and get better at an instrument. Lonely, means I have more time to think about who I am. Lonely, means that I am challenged to examine what it is that I enjoy and find those things, wherever they are.
I don't watch broadcast television, which means, living on my own, I don't turn that on to create noise and some company. In fact, most of the time, my apartment is quiet with just the sound of me on the keyboard or ukulele, a miaowing cat and the occasional creak of a floorboard. When I do have other noise it's some music or National Radio playing. I do love the rich sound of the interviews and discussion and this is something I aspire to with my own podcasts. I enjoy a life without television adverts and indeed Paul Henry.
Music dominates my life and always has. I am finding being in a new city without a band challenging. The camaraderie, the performance, the sounds you make together all go to making a brilliant experience. The Comfy Chairs were a brilliant experience and I could not have hoped for a better foray into the world of being in a band. I am rediscovering old music too through my CD collection and the blessing of Spotify and being able to revisit old albums which I have on vinyl but do not play. The Jazz Butcher, David Sylvian, The Mockers, Tanita Tikaram, Bauhaus, Echo and the Bunnymen to name but a few.
So, enough rambling, let's wait and see where this month goes.....